ok. m lagging and i know that. yupz. results finally out after 3 whole agonising months.well, not really. but whatever. when rumours of the release first appeared, people called and msged. period of anxiety no doubt. everyone felt uneasy "just how did i do?!" , "mon or fri?!" no one knew. i remembered looking out for the front page every single day, but there was still no news...finally, it's been confirmed. 28/2/05. made our way back to the new site. everyone was familiar. but somewhat 'mo shen'. it's been a long time since we last met. i guess that's just how it is. so we sat on the uninviting floor and waited. mrs tan was somewhat expressionless. just what did that mean? daren't really look at her straight in the face. paranoid that there'd be any hint of disappointment. stressed.... low ranting on abt clred hair. "if i c any one with their hair dyed next yr...i'd.." didn't u said 'next year' the same time last yr too? anw... |
still a line-up of explainations. distribution of pamphlets/ yr bk (surprisingly veri colourful) blahz...
can't u all just hurry up? ugh. my limbs are going numb and my patience was thinning. mind was sorta whirling and i can't think straight. franc just asked mrs tan how we did n all she said was "as usual la. ' you ren huan xi you ren chou' "great. keeps fingers cross that i won't be the one 'chou-ing'
after all, i did dreamt that i got 16. and if i were normal, i wldn't consider that great.
finally QL went up. then WY. then Jade called me. 'xu jing yi chang' SY haven't take hers.
oh. then mine. *ugh* starting to feel extremely sick
i sat. signed at the wrong column cuz i didn't bring my 20 bucks. then mrs tan coolly told me, ''12''
i was like ''oh, ok'' and took my slip. but stOopid me cldn't figure how she derived at that and went back to ask. ok. confirmed-12.
so? i didn't feel happy, nor sad. why? i cldn't understand. it was weird and shocking...that i wasn't extremely elated. mebbe a tinnie-winnie bit of relief and, nth else. it was just baffling how i cried buckets upon the realisation that we got gold for syf'o3 and how i felt absolutely nth upon getting the results of one of e most important examinations in my life.
anw. so here we are. at another crossroads of our lives.(the last was during psle) and trust me, having many to choose from isn't great at all when u onli have 240+ hours to consider. and i'm worse off being indecisive. ugh. *big headache*
haiz...so lost and confused. why does it seem to me that i am always the onli one who's got the self-diagnosed severity of the LnC disease?
posted by yz @ 5:10 AM
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